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“Stan,” I said, “I have another question about journaling.”
“Fire away,” he responded.
“Well, I’ve been doing it for awhile now, but some days it seems I am just doing it so I don’t miss a day. Sort of just to keep the string going.”
“Been there, done that,” Stan said. “And God made it real clear to me that I was headed in the wrong direction.”
“Tell me about that.”
“I don’t remember exactly when it happened, but it was several years after I had started journaling every day.”
“It seems that I had become more interested in doing it every single day than I was on just soaking before the Lord. It was like it was a habit I didn’t want to break, rather than a process of getting to know Him better. But He changed that!”
“Tendinitis in my writing hand. It became so painful I could not write for more than a minute at a time.”
“So, did you stop journaling?” I asked.
“No, I changed it. Rather than spending all of the time writing, I began to spend a lot more time listening to what God had for me to hear.”
“It was a change that deepened the whole process. It was a change that needed to take place, and God took care of changing it.”
“What about the tendinitis?”
It eventually went away, but the change in the journaling time did not.”
“Ever since God afflicted me with that, the process of drawing ever closer to Him through journaling has only gotten deeper and better. I am so thankful that God cared enough about our relationship to change it and me.”
“Affliction for a purpose. God’s purpose!”
It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I may learn your statutes. Psalm 119:71.
Prayer: Lord, thank you for caring enough about me and our relationship that you will do what is necessary to change me. Please open me to see you and your movement in everything, even painful affliction. Help me to accept what you have for me, knowing you have my best interests in mind, even when, from my selfish perspective, it is not easy to see. Amen.