“Are you familiar with the story of Peter weeping after he denied knowing Jesus?” Stan asked me one morning.
“Somewhat,” was my reply.
“I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately,” he said.
“Any particular reason?”, I asked.
“Well, mainly, because I have been thinking how often I deny knowing Jesus.”
My surprised answer was, “Really? Why would you say that?”
“Peter walked with Jesus for three years. He had seen Him do amazing things with and for people out of His Love. Peter had heard Jesus say some astonishing things.”
“Yeah, I know that. But how does that relate to you?”
“After all Peter had experienced with Jesus, he denied even knowing Him when the going got tough.”
“Jesus was not surprised by what Peter did, but Peter sure was. And when he realized it, he wept.”
“I still don’t see how that relates to you,” I said.
“You don’t know me as well as I do, but I want to be totally honest with you about how many times I deny knowing Jesus by my thoughts, words, and actions.”
“I may not come right out and say to someone that I don’t even know Jesus, but I know there are too many things about me that scream that I don’t even know Him.”
“What do you do when you realize those things?” I asked.
“I weep,” was Stan’s answer. “I weep with the tears of confession and repentance.”
“And I hope and pray you get to that point of weeping over such things as well.”
“That is my prayer as well,” I responded. “Thanks, Stan.”
Peter began to weep. Mark 14:72
Prayer: Lord, you know how often I deny knowing you by my thoughts, words, and actions. You know and I know. Please forgive me. And please move in me to transform me into the person you intend, the one who will not deny you in any way, but will manifest you. Amen.