“We’ve touched on conversion and transformation several times,” Stan began, “but I saw something yesterday that makes me want to talk about it again today.”
Continuing he said, “I firmly believe that conversion is not transformation, but that it is just the beginning of what is intended to be a life-long process until I step into eternity to spend the rest of it with God.”
“Sounds about right,” I responded. “What did you see yesterday?”
“It was not only a ‘what’ it was a ‘who’.” Stan replied. “I saw someone who claims to be a Christian manifesting the most unChristian-like behavior imaginable. It was like he had never started down transformation road.”
“Anyone I know?” I asked.
“You are sitting across the table from him,” Stan said with a sheepish grin.
“Couldn’t be,” I replied. “You are way beyond that. Aren’t you?”
“I thought so,” Stan responded, “but when the ugliness of self rises up it is not pretty and I am given a vivid picture of what the lack of continual transformation looks like.”
“It’s not like I have suddenly lost my salvation,” Stan continued, “for that is not possible, but it is sure like I have lost my way in the first step of the continual discipleship process of denying self.”
“I am constantly made aware of the fact that, for me, the beginning of the transformational process certainly is not the end. It is what it is, only the beginning, and has to be pursued by continually denying self, taking up my cross, and following wherever I am led.”
If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. Luke 9:23.
Prayer: Thank you, Lord, that you make it clear what it means to be yours. The first step is to deny myself. I confess how many times each day I fail to do that and allow the ugliness of self to rise up. Please forgive me. And please move in me so that I am constantly aware of the need and the possibility of truly denying myself in every aspect of my being so that I only manifest you, not me apart from you. Thank you I can and do bring these prayers before you in the name of Jesus. Amen.